Friday May 22, I had my psych appointment with Dr. Raden. He seems nice. He listened, payed attention, was very attentive to detail and made eye contact. He told me the some of the medication I was on was shit. He advised me that it seemed like the past shrinks I’d been seeing were just pushing pills on me instead of actually paying enough attention to helping me. Basically they were lazy fuckin shit heads. Which in all honesty, yes they were.
So since Friday after noon, I started my new regiment of crazy pills. He gave me Ativan .5 to take twice a day, I’m still on Lamactil at 300mg a day in the mornings, Xanaz as needed and or before bed at .5mg and Seroquel (sleep aid) to be taken before bed every night so that I can actually sleep and possibly function like a normal human being.
So here is what I shall hash out to you. Its only been a few days, so I don’t want to be too judgmental about any of it.
I’m pretty sure the Ativan is working it’s magic. The only thing I seem to have an issue with is that I feel drowsy. It’s something my body will need to get used to, so I will give it a few weeks and reevaluate the situation. I am calm. I get through my irritability better, more or less I can handle it better. I guess it’s because I am too calm or sedated for a lack of words, to want to fight or get upset or let my anxiety act up. But there is a side effect. I feel a little loopy, brain fog if you will. Scrambled of my brain which is, believe it or not a big fuckin problem. Especially when I’m trying to explain things and I can’t talk, my words come out backwards and it is just a jumbled mess. I dont know if it has to do with the meds or whatever. I don’t know how I will do when I do get too stressed out, I haven’t been put into a high stress situation yet to test that theory.
I already know that Xanax does wonders for me, so I really don’t feel the need to comment on it too much lol I take it mainly at night time when my anxiety actually has the chance to reach me.
The Seroquel I am liking mucho gusta. It puts me out like a fucking light and I can actually sleep through the whole night like a fucking normal person (THANK THE GODS). I can even get up and pee and go back to sleep. It used to be like if I got up to use the bathroom in the middle of the night i was screwed and couldn’t fall back to sleep. But this is wonderful. B-e-aUTIFUL!
I will update on the psycho pills after about a week, so maybe next Monday.